Karl H. Timmerman M.A.J.D. 2002
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MAY 30, 2003
Greets and Huggers.  Posted the evening of May 31, 2003. :    Been thinking about why we die faster than the general population:  a possible explanation ....... for you to think about, perhaps, the first step in finding a solution, (forgive me for taking some liberties with "labels").
"Consensual Reality" is comprised/described/defined as coming in three states of being.  The first is, "Energy", in it's various forms, the second is,  "Matter: Physical Energy" in its various forms and the third is, the absence of either, (given the latest research, the absence of either is questionable:  hehehe  ....  seems, everything has something in it).  "Energy" is governed by the laws of thermodynamics,
http://pespmc1.vub.ac.be/ENTRTHER.html.  The first law of thermodynamics states that there is a finite amount of energy and this amount remains constant  ...... the second law of thermodynamics holds that the state of this energy degrades irreversibly, (the highest state being physical energy, "Matter" .....  ie .... you burn a log, (matter) and produce light and heat, (energy).  This changing of form is irreversible.  The fundamental premise behind the laws of thermodynamics is, that "energy" cannot be created nor destroyed ... "energy" can only change form.  Freud used Plato's "tripartite" model to explain the structure of the human mind.  "Id", "Ego" and "Superego" with "Id" being the "instinct" portion, (composed of "Eros" ... the things we do to promote life, wellness and well being and "Thanatos", the death instinct, the things we do to destroy life, aggression, destructive habits/life styles): "Paleocortex" .  "Superego" is the socialized portion of our brain, our conscience: "Neocortex". "Ego" is the visible you, composed of a balance of the dynamic tensions and interactions between the "id" and the "superego".  Life, as a process, both physical and mental, (including our thoughts and feelings) are a form of energy. "Cognitive Dissonance", http://www.dmu.ac.uk/~jamesa/learning/dissonance.htm), is the energy created by the conflict between the "Id" and "Superego" as a result of the intellectual difference between what we know is "right" and what we know is "wrong":  "good"  vs. "evil" .....  "falsehood" vs. "truth". We make our living resolving conflict, yet, when the resolution of  conflict becomes a personal matter, unless personally resolved, the energy created can cause an imbalance strong enough to cause illness.  I believe this is the mechanism that makes us sick as a profession, (twice as likely to commit suicide,  3.6 times more likely to suffer from general depression, 10 times more likely to suffer from obsessive/compulsive disorder and 9 times more likely to suffer from anxiety disorder).    "Psychosomatic",  http://www.elsevier.nl/inca/publications/store/5/2/5/4/7/4/), is the label given to the negative physical impact the energy created by cognitive dissonance has on our body.   All mental health models have intervention paradigms, (therapy), the function of which is to restore balance by dissipating/converting energy, (catharsis).  As a profession, we need to learn how to convert this energy, (keep in mind energy cannot be created nor destroyed .... it can only change form), in a constructive manner. We need balance.   The first and most important step,  is to balance what you do in order TO Live and Living  ....  "put another way,  you cannot achieve personal growth, enjoy the beauties of this life if you are working 24/7.  To have a life worth living,  you MUST set aside time for yourself, your significant other and your children."  Explaining Maslow, Friday Night Ramblings, 12-20-02 .  You have the same physiology as a deep sea diver:  what makes you think you can dive, at the beginning of your working day to 300 feet, come strait back to the surface at the end of your day   .........    and not suffer the bends?

How do you restore "balance"?  "Little steps for little feet". Fritz Perls,  (
http://ourworld.compuserve.com/homepages/gik_gestalt/fritz_perls.html)  .....  keep in mind, most of what we do is a process:  you seldom see the result of your work the same day.   As a result, you lose track of when to "finish" the day: everything starts running together.  Over time, starting in Law School, you are encouraged/forced to become what you do.  Opposites:  who you are ... and what you do.  "The core of the therapy, [Gestalt] is learning to confront your opposites."   That is the core of "balance". Start, by setting hours for a working day, 8:00 am to 5:00 pm., Monday through Friday.  Do NOT take work home.  Take an hour off for lunch each day ... and get the hell out of the office.  Find a place, on the way home  ... a park  ..  any spot, (other than a bar), and stop for 30 minutes and decompress ..... think about things other than law, business, cases, etc.  This is the beginning of "little steps for little feet".  If you had one day left to live  .....  would you really spend it at the office?

Watched "The District" last Saturday night.  The last image on the show, was "The Wall", (Vietnam War Memorial).  I have not been to see "The Wall".  Like some of you, I remember folks whose names are on it.  I'm not ready yet.   I have a picture hanging above my fireplace, a graphic by Lee Teeter. Brings tears to my eyes when I take the time to look at it: 
http://www.art.com/asp/sp-asp/_/ui--910D372B60DA402B88CE349D771C8CFD/PD--10087829/sOrig--CRT/sOrigId--7817/Vietnam_Reflections.asp#   'Nuff said.

Been exploring my faith again.  Spent some time this week reading Gandhi,
http://www.mkgandhi.org/sfgbook/index.htm.   "It is easy enough to say, I do not believe in God. For God permits all things to be said of Him with impunity. He looks at our acts. And any breach of His law carries with it, not its vindictive, but its purifying, compelling punishment." Mahatma Gandhi    Also read the Bhagavad Gita, (5,000 year old Hindu Vedas revelation, http://eawc.evansville.edu/anthology/gita.htm),  as translated by Ramanand Prasad.  Strange, how there are common threads with Islam and Christianity:  God's need to be worshiped. The most common thread being an affirmation of the need for "us" to seek God, an innate knowledge that God exists .... that God is there waiting for us.  Our need to submit to God.  Stranger yet for a 5,000 year old treatise, a recognition of the laws of thermodynamics:  energy, (soul) cannot be created nor destroyed .... it only changes form.  At what point does a fetus gain a soul?  At conception?  Don't know.  I'm still questioning.  Stay tuned.

Sitting here at Ft. Timmerman, sipping on some BBB, editing the Ramblings ....... and trying to stop thinking about Joe Crites. My heart weeps for Joe ....  I cannot even imagine what he must be feeling:  Sheila was his life, his partner, best friend .... the other half of him. Where do you find the strength to deal with such pain?  Guess you either have resignation or .... you have faith.  I chose to believe Sheila has only changed  .... shed an old dress and now has a beautiful, brand new one and can hardly wait to share it with Joe  ......  she is waiting for him.  I will hold Susan extra close tonight.  Be and sleep well. If my post offends, I apologize  ...  that is not my intent.

Karl (the dumb ole country lawyer from Holden, Missouri)